at 14 a song like 'jóga' seems like a promise of a whole way of living and being that helps you see beyond the limited frame of your experience. it opens up this space where you feel understood in the deep way that music can make you feel understood, but i didn't have the words for it. i still don't really have the words for it.
but over a decade later the song not only still does all of that but also means something new. "state of emergency is where i want to be" isn't just a beautiful encapsulation of what it can feel like to be alive, but in fact is something that maps onto your life, all of the experiences you have between then and now, whenever "then" and "now" fall in time
it's an amazing thing. and it doesn't happen with all of the music you grew up with. when it happens it is total magic
