Just having read your (Björk) quotes page here,
https://www.brainyquote.com/authors/bjork-quotes, more than only agreeing on 99% on what you say, sharing over 80% of your first name and knowing you have experienced enlightenment, although I understand what you mean, when you say that you're no f***ing Buddhist, I thought; are you familiar with Mikhail Bulgakov's Master & margarita (and this scene
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XrCzAXm2IrA (enable subtitles)) and would you be interested to "touch base" on the subject of "light"? I spent 7 years investigating my experiences (and almost lost my life, while ending up without money for 2 years too and ending up in South east asia for 4 years (pretty solitary mostly)). It's a long shot, because, you need to squint your ears to listen through all the noise, but if there's one thing I've learned; it shouldn't all be only on my initiative. But not letting anybody know I'm here, isn't fair either, of course. Now; let's pray?...